Jwalk
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Stop watching pornography.
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Week 12 of 12
Jwalk commits to:
Stop (intentionally) watching pornography.
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My Commitment Journal
 Jwalk
April 3, 2024, 3:34 PM
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| I was very stressed again, and actively searched for reddit threads. Also when the block timer ended, I found myself trying to search for anything. Even if it just starts with curiosity, it always ends up as a 2 hour session. Really can't slip up and recognize when I'm just searching it's never going to end well and I always feel like crap again. | |
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Jwalk
March 6, 2024, 2:39 PM
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| Bad week, lots of cravings past few days before and after failing. | |
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Jwalk
March 4, 2024, 10:49 PM
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Failed today. Started feeling it coming on a couple days ago, was getting triggered by IG stuff sent, and googled a name I shouldn't have which made me see a Pstar and then I searched through reddit forums as much as I could find until I found various subreddits or a site and just basically blacked out. 2 hours total searching for the right stuff, even while I had work to do. And worst of all (maybe a blessing) it wasn't even enjoyable when I finally decided to do it in the end. I can feel my head go into that funny addict awful feeling, with terrible gooner brain fog. I even knew about the $100 I would have to pay and just thought I need this anyway, it took over. All after one sight of a pstar on youtube/images and seeing some reddit, and it is never as good/hot as I think it's going to be. Just need to remember to take care of myself (through thoughts) when I can feel it start coming on or getting distracted too much. |
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Jwalk
February 28, 2024, 1:41 PM
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| Intense dreams, almost relapse after sent insta DM | |
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